....it's all good....
Thursday, July 16, 2009
it's not the finishing line yet..
i'm not naive. definitely not ignorant. i know i appear too upbeat at times but yes, i know cancer can kill me easily. i know the stake. i'm fully aware of my condition and i don't think anybody can be more anxious about me than myself. i stay sanguine to keep my spirit high (and thank god, i don't need alot of effort to do that) cause i know i'm in for a life and death battle.
i have this strange theory that cancer is a living cell and like any living forms .. it will retaliate if attacked or when they feel danger. at the initial stage, it strike back so hard that my whole neck glands and nodes were swollen and painful. it does worry me that it may be heading for my brain but i'm not giving in just because it scares me. i was still jokingly telling a friend, "i think my cancer cells are having pms. it went all berserk now. obviously it don't like what i'm doing.." my neck is fine now.
it may have gone aggressive and ahead of me in the race... but i'm still in the running track ...i'm still running with all my might to catch up.
i don't see the finishing line as yet...
i'm sweating it out. i'm pumping strength and fueling up to keep myself fit to compete. you don't give up just because you are falling behind. not to forget, i have amazing people to cheer me on the sideline..giving me every support possible... who will even stretch out their legs to trip the bugger if only possible.
yes. i do get scared at times but i'm still hanging on to this...
Maybe the longer we can look the way we used to, act the way we used to, be the way we used to, the longer we keep that Beast at bay.-- Leroy Sievers
don't focus on cancer. focus on myself. don't think of what it can do. think of what i can do. you never know, i may outrun it. thats the odd i'm betting on.
fyi. i'm back to my routine and feeling fine now :)
i have this strange theory that cancer is a living cell and like any living forms .. it will retaliate if attacked or when they feel danger. at the initial stage, it strike back so hard that my whole neck glands and nodes were swollen and painful. it does worry me that it may be heading for my brain but i'm not giving in just because it scares me. i was still jokingly telling a friend, "i think my cancer cells are having pms. it went all berserk now. obviously it don't like what i'm doing.." my neck is fine now.
it may have gone aggressive and ahead of me in the race... but i'm still in the running track ...i'm still running with all my might to catch up.
i don't see the finishing line as yet...
i'm sweating it out. i'm pumping strength and fueling up to keep myself fit to compete. you don't give up just because you are falling behind. not to forget, i have amazing people to cheer me on the sideline..giving me every support possible... who will even stretch out their legs to trip the bugger if only possible.
yes. i do get scared at times but i'm still hanging on to this...
Maybe the longer we can look the way we used to, act the way we used to, be the way we used to, the longer we keep that Beast at bay.-- Leroy Sievers
don't focus on cancer. focus on myself. don't think of what it can do. think of what i can do. you never know, i may outrun it. thats the odd i'm betting on.
fyi. i'm back to my routine and feeling fine now :)
posted by lisaOne at 6:30 PM
13 Comments:
*runs with my lisalove*
love you sweetheart.
let's run a good run. :)
*hugs and kisses* xxx
good that you're back to feeling good, yeah!!! detoxification over. now to healing of the body.
i'm not living a healthy lifestyle because i am under so much stress. you know sweetheart, things keep happening one after another. but i can't complain too much. just wanna get it off my chest. *shows chest hahah*
love you babe. xxx
:) yes focus on happier things okay?
focus on yourself.. focus on the kids.. focus on the family.. who wants to focus on the bugger anyway.
*hug tight tight*
Be happy all the time..and try to be as upbeat as possible. No life journeys are without its hurdles. Though yours is unfairly harder than some others, you have now come so far. Nothing is going to stop you now my dear..stay focused, and leave the fear & doubts (and cancer cells) behind you. Life is not meant to be easy anyway. But you've done good, all of us are so proud of you and you know you are capable of doing even better. So here we are, all of us reading this now..we will not only cheer you on..we will walk alongside you (all of you out there..raise your hands if you are with Lisa)
Believe that everything you do now will reap its rewards, not just yet but one day..
Believe in natural healing..
Believe in your instincts..
Believe that with every blood test results, despite how it depletes your hopes, you are never going to let it take control of you..
And we..
We believe the fact that a little shake of your head don't necessary mean you are caving in, and..
We believe too that because you will pick yourself up again and again..no matter how stubborn these cells are, you will topple them in the end..
We believe in staying happy..and because we believe that we are capable of making you happy (in a small way at least)..this is one thing we will relentless be doing..
We believe in you..
i admire you, you upbeat spirit truly amazing! :)
totally agree with you....just stay focus on anything except the bugger
good morning sweetheart. let's go for a morning walk together. i so need it, this bag of lethargic bones that i am.
*thinking of you day and night, before i sleep and early morning* :)
*smooch* xxx
Good to hear that you're feeling fine and back to your routine..
Focus on all things good:)
Hocus locus that bugger!!
Keep it up mummy, Im sure u can do it! hug hug :D
thinking of you, sweetheart..
*ciums* xxx
No.. you are not at the finishing line.. far from it.. run with perseverance and you will be the winner.. there is no point in living life less than happy and full of joy as the Lord say by worrying you cannot add a single day to your life..
You have all of us cheering for you and you will defeat and triumph over this.
*monday kisses* *smmmmuaacks*
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