....it's all good....
Monday, September 17, 2007
gotta laugh at it sometime....
dear all, just want to say that my kids have completely recovered and we are all fine. thank you so much for your concern and good wishes.
quite in contrary to the wonderful compliments i received from you all, i thought i'm such a big whiner for the past few months. i complained….i whined….i complained again…and then i whined some more ….such a drama queen.
now i’m about to whimper a little more....just a little bit more. after 3 months of chemo, i think my bone marrows are exhausted…it’s impacting notably on my white and red blood cells. both are constantly below acceptable level now and we expect my condition to remain so until i complete treatment. they think i probably need a lot of jabs this month to help me complete treatment. i have 2 Neupogen jabs last week to bring up my white cell and have another 2 shots this week. i’m anemic now and they also gave me a shot called Eprex to stimulate my bone marrow to produce more red bloods.
all the jabs plus the anaemia put a black cloud over my head everywhere i go….eh- not that i can go far…my bones rattle when i walk....(hahaha - i gotta laugh at it and you are invited to laugh with me)….okay, I exaggerated a little. my bones ache…my legs shake a little and my hands shake a little but it's not as bad as it sounds. the physical side effects are quite tolerable but i loathe it when it mess with my mind.
it gave me the blues ☹ for the past 2 weeks. i become this weepy, teary eyes fragile being that so easily suck into my own self pity. i can watch Mickey Christmas with my kids and start crying over the thought that i may not even be around this Christmas to celebrate with them....why do i even think UP something like that?????? sounds like depression-huh? yeah, i better get a grip of myself before it gets the better of me.
i know cancer is not funny....not funny at all. but i rather laugh than cry about it. a sick mind intensify a sick body. you hear me saying often, "i'm ok", "i'm not that sick", "i'll get better'- i believe many if not all cancer patients say that and i got pretty good at the game myself....it just one of those things we try to make ourselves feel better. it may not work, but we might as well keep trying....(haha-gotta laugh at it sometime.....).
stay focus and think about the good bits. i remember some of you asked me how many more chemo cycle i needs....and this is the good bits- i have one more cycle to go!!!! i'm on a 16 weeks regimen and i have almost completed 12 weeks....yee-ha ....hi-5 everyone!!!! i should do the weekly count down now- yeah? yeah? agree?
now, the serious bits. although cancer has taken an awful lot out of me in the shortest period of time but i thank God everyday for my blessings. my gratitude for those that love and care about me. i count my blessings for the prayers, the thoughts, the vibes, the sms and the comments you left in my blog. it reminded me that i'm not alone in this. i consider myself incredibly fortunate to find myself in such good company. thank you all so much.
and to the blogger gang....you rock!!!! even writing this put a smile on my face. a curtsy....a deep bow... an organic veggies juice toast to you all. thank you so much for the bird nests and EMX...and most of all, thank you for sharing your kindness with me.
dear Jasmine, thanks abundance for the ginseng and for your generosity. xoxoxo from me to you.
dear ZMM, EMX is such a fantastic choice. i feel like a toxic dump.....and look like a drug junkie...an 'aneroxic" drug junkie...okay, maybe i over exaggerated a bit again but i sure feel like one- (hahaha- gotta laught at it sometime.....). EMX will surely help in my de-tox program that i'm planning after the treatment. thank you so much. oh yeah, jaz and you are at the top of my list of people i want to meet, hug and squeeze a little as soon as i feel more like myself. it will fun to watch your 2 princesses tango with my boys :)
a smoochie to all from Brad on behalf of me...
quite in contrary to the wonderful compliments i received from you all, i thought i'm such a big whiner for the past few months. i complained….i whined….i complained again…and then i whined some more ….such a drama queen.
now i’m about to whimper a little more....just a little bit more. after 3 months of chemo, i think my bone marrows are exhausted…it’s impacting notably on my white and red blood cells. both are constantly below acceptable level now and we expect my condition to remain so until i complete treatment. they think i probably need a lot of jabs this month to help me complete treatment. i have 2 Neupogen jabs last week to bring up my white cell and have another 2 shots this week. i’m anemic now and they also gave me a shot called Eprex to stimulate my bone marrow to produce more red bloods.
all the jabs plus the anaemia put a black cloud over my head everywhere i go….eh- not that i can go far…my bones rattle when i walk....(hahaha - i gotta laugh at it and you are invited to laugh with me)….okay, I exaggerated a little. my bones ache…my legs shake a little and my hands shake a little but it's not as bad as it sounds. the physical side effects are quite tolerable but i loathe it when it mess with my mind.
it gave me the blues ☹ for the past 2 weeks. i become this weepy, teary eyes fragile being that so easily suck into my own self pity. i can watch Mickey Christmas with my kids and start crying over the thought that i may not even be around this Christmas to celebrate with them....why do i even think UP something like that?????? sounds like depression-huh? yeah, i better get a grip of myself before it gets the better of me.
i know cancer is not funny....not funny at all. but i rather laugh than cry about it. a sick mind intensify a sick body. you hear me saying often, "i'm ok", "i'm not that sick", "i'll get better'- i believe many if not all cancer patients say that and i got pretty good at the game myself....it just one of those things we try to make ourselves feel better. it may not work, but we might as well keep trying....(haha-gotta laugh at it sometime.....).
stay focus and think about the good bits. i remember some of you asked me how many more chemo cycle i needs....and this is the good bits- i have one more cycle to go!!!! i'm on a 16 weeks regimen and i have almost completed 12 weeks....yee-ha ....hi-5 everyone!!!! i should do the weekly count down now- yeah? yeah? agree?
now, the serious bits. although cancer has taken an awful lot out of me in the shortest period of time but i thank God everyday for my blessings. my gratitude for those that love and care about me. i count my blessings for the prayers, the thoughts, the vibes, the sms and the comments you left in my blog. it reminded me that i'm not alone in this. i consider myself incredibly fortunate to find myself in such good company. thank you all so much.
and to the blogger gang....you rock!!!! even writing this put a smile on my face. a curtsy....a deep bow... an organic veggies juice toast to you all. thank you so much for the bird nests and EMX...and most of all, thank you for sharing your kindness with me.
dear Jasmine, thanks abundance for the ginseng and for your generosity. xoxoxo from me to you.
dear ZMM, EMX is such a fantastic choice. i feel like a toxic dump.....and look like a drug junkie...an 'aneroxic" drug junkie...okay, maybe i over exaggerated a bit again but i sure feel like one- (hahaha- gotta laught at it sometime.....). EMX will surely help in my de-tox program that i'm planning after the treatment. thank you so much. oh yeah, jaz and you are at the top of my list of people i want to meet, hug and squeeze a little as soon as i feel more like myself. it will fun to watch your 2 princesses tango with my boys :)
a smoochie to all from Brad on behalf of me...
posted by lisaOne at 9:38 AM
21 Comments:
*wipes off all the saliva from u* hahaha.....
good news that you are almost finishing the chemo. We are all here waiting for you at the finish line OK. And watch out for the next coming gift :)
I'm so glad that you choose to laugh. Yes, we will laugh and cheer with you.
Let's not think about tomorrow as it isn't here yet. Let's concentrate on today as you are present with your loved ones now.
*leaves with a bear hug for lisa*
hi lisa,
thanks for the kind message on my blogsite. Yup, it sucks to be sick...but I'm learning from you...to be strong...
Keep fighting "the thing that must not be named" (in Harry Potter's words)...
You've come a very long way already and we're all rooting for you here.
Btw, my Mum says that 'zhua zhi chau' (Hokkien) is also good as my uncle takes it after chemo. Bird's nest also!
And anything that builds strength -the West will whack the enemy(chemo), the East will energize the body (herbals).
Glad to hear your kids have bounced back too =)
Hi, Lisa happy to heard tat the boys is ok now. U really a brave women. I should learn from u.
Take care and cheers!
Phew.. good to hear from you again! I was coming here e.day to check.. :P
This round.. you managed to make me tear a bit.. and then smile a bit.
You take care ok?
*wipe off Brad's saliva*.. :)
Btw, glad that the EMX will be useful for your detox program.
Lisa, so glad that you are happy n positive. Time flies n you are almost at the end already...Keep it up..
Hey you should watch more comedy series like Puah Chu Kang or Friends. Laughter is the best medicine. Anyway I hope you will complete your chemo and come back as an healthy person!
Glad to know that your chemo is finishing. We all look forward to your next phase of complete recovery!!
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