....it's all good....

back from Beijing.
attended a very gratifying much-to-talk-about qigong workshop ;)

however, this by far the most worrisome flight i have ever had. not so much of h1n1. in terms of that, i'm more worried i couldn't pass the health check than the spreading virus itself :P

i fell very ill weeks before the trip. the coughing got worse and i think my lungs were (was) inflamed. i'm breathless all the time. i'm breathless to just walk 10 steps ahead.. i'm breathless even just standing up for more than 5 minutes.

believe me, i get motion sickness from walking. i threw up so much till i lost my appetite. the lack of food kinda compounded the situation and made me weaker by the day. my weights dropped below 40kg in days. i need to lie down most if not all the time, just too weak to get up actually. horrfying!

fortunately, i bounced back 2 days before the trip. not entirely okay but i guess it's good enough for me to move on. thanks for all who prayed and thought about me during this time *hugs and kisses*

flying to beijing was okay. it's a night flight. many were sleeping throughout and hence, oxygen requirement was low.
but coming back was a nightmare. the oxygen level was so low and scarce due to all the activities going on. baby crying.. people talking.. walking to the lavatory etc etc.

i have a hard time competing for oxygen??!! x_x
in fact, i have to constantly put my body in 'sleep mode' for that 6 hours. even when i'm not sleeping, i'm meditating to control my breathing. in....out...in...out. no kidding. i'm serious!
any movement, even small movements like drinking water or talking will send my heart pumping for oxygen circulation.. you can see my chest heaving obviously. i starved myself because i'm too afraid to eat. gasping for air is not a pleasant feeling. for that one or two time i went to the lavatory, i turned pale and blueist if i couldn't calm my heart down within minutes. geez! it feels like i'm going into an asthma or heart attack anytime. thank God all those meditation during the workshop helps. back in one piece :)
(i can use some lipstick in the photo. so pale)

so, how's the workshop? isit worth the risk?
well, if someone sponsor me a trip to Paris staying in a 7 stars hotel right now, i will not hesitate to say, "no thanks, i would rather stay at home". i mean it.

for this Beijing trip, no regret. i will do it all over again.
does it cure me? ( I got that alot. haha)... no, not as yet.
it's not a treatment to heal me immediately. qigong is a powerful act to strengthen the body and it's something i want to learn for better health. it's a mean to heal :)

~more later.

after invasion of viruses in the body...my notebook is contaminated with viruses too. t_t

the anti-virus went faulty and i was unable to activate it again. after maneuvering a mountain of information from my company IT support website.. and cannot find a solution.. and no pre-determined troubleshoot tips.. and unable to successfully launch a chatroom with the IT fellas too, i remember a dear colleague old advice, "it's so much easier to just re-format lisa." good advice.

might need to go down to the office to get the cd to re-format my notebook but for the time being, i'm still under self-quarantine... maybe have to wait, which mean i don't have my lappie and won't be able to update my blog till then.... unless i'm able to distract my hub and hijack his notebook (like right now), which btw is not an easy task cause he has been such a workaholic lately.
so, don't worry if i didn't update my blog ya.

oh, about me, i'm better i guess.. less coughing except at night...less phlegmy too... but the chest is still congested though clearing off too... and please do remind me to bring a tank of oxygen with me if i were to take the kids out to the supermarket again :P...and yes, no fever *phew*.

finally..finally..finally... i'm down with virus.
sore throat.. coughy.. phlegmy .. super lousy..
thank goodness, no fever so far but monitoring closely.
... and please no. no fever. no! no! i don't think i can survive H1N1 with my condition *touch wood*
just took my med.. gonna konk off now..

i'm down at the pool. basking in the sunshine of a bygone morning.

not swimming. the pool is closed for maintenance. wanted to bring along an apple and a bottle of goat's milk. however, i grabbed my notebook and forgot the rest :P

it's more than half an hour now..time flies when you are connected to the mobile world at the touch of your fingertips. time to go..

someone think my FB profile pictures are so cool :)
i think so too :P



my latest profile pic (taken yesterday). kinda suits the mood.


i look so fragile.. breakable..

he called the children bible story book 'The God's book' :D

















whenever his little brother is naughty, he who said "mummy, why God gave you such a naughty baby?" :D















i seriously need time to slow down a little.