....it's all good....

i just got off the phone with my mom and part of the conversation went something like this,

mom: did you eat? can you eat?
me: yes mom. i can eat now and i'm eating.
(we went over and over and over and over the same line ... just to achieve the level of assurance she required)
mom: are you sure you're okay? please call if you need help, ok?
me: yes mom. it's just that 2x. i'm okay.

note: given the recent episode, it's understandable why she is overly 'kancheong' (anxious).

what happened?


fella # 1 started it.
caught a virus and started vomiting. fever. chill.

he said,
"i vomited 3x and i'm almost well again the next day"

and he is proud of it o.O




despite warning him a 100x not to go so near his bro, he don't seems to be able to resist him and surely, his turn to start vomiting.

he vomited 5x and 2x diarrhea. fever. chill. and turned jello yesterday.
i left them with babysitter today. just called (again) and they sounds okay.







after cleaning up vomit for the eighth time, without a doubt, it's my turn. crap!
i vomited 2x last night. feeling much better today.
a little nauseous and lightheaded still... but i'm fine.

the hubby is exhausted but not infected. phew.





what's with the box? ah! it's our christmas tree storage box. last year, we wrapped up the box with leftover mahjong papers (we used to stick the paper on the wall for the kids to draw) and we scribbled, doodled and drew on it.. just for fun. actually we copied the drawings from Oistein Kristiansen. cool drawings! we forgotten about it until we retrieved the christmas tree recently. but yeah, it was ripped off within minutes... after hours and hours of drawing.
and yep, we finally put up our christamas tree :) where is the christmas tree? i like it with lights on and haven't got round of taking a pic at night.. later :)

since i'm homebound today.. so, i'm gonna be more long-winded and bore you with a long entry. maybe i can even get some advice from you. and since i'm gonna be long-winded, i shall put in more visual images to stop you from falling asleep.

as accurately predicted, my face start to sprout pimples when it hit the 3rd week. i was convinced then that my face will be covered with zits by christmas. surprisingly, (maybe it's the high dosage of vit C, maybe it's AOX, maybe i prayed too hard :P), it just stopped popping and pretty much under control now. i still get one every week or so but it's tiny and manageable.

i bought this thinking Clinique should have better acne products since it's for younger skin but obviously, i didn't fall under that category :P :P, so, this is not working for me.

if you know of any good acne products, please share. thank you.


what a relief right? mmm.. however, what comes next is even worst.


my skin is so so so dry up till it hurts. it's always tight and pulling, patchy and scaling, prickly and itchy. it feels horrible to touch (even the bottom of my feet felt better prior to IRESSA). not only the face, the body too. and its bloody bloody sensitive, so sensitive that it stings when i put on moisturizer. if i don't put on lotion for a couple of hours, i will end up with semi-permanent goosebumps effect on my skin due to over-scratching. no, i'm not bullshitting.

however, i guess the extra work put in (as below) helps alittle. doesn't get rid of the problem but it's at least comforting and soothing... to the skin.

i changed all my body and face wash to soap free moisturizing base. i used tonnes of body lotion.
i carry Avene thermal spring water everywhere i go. it provides instant relief when my skin feels itchy. however, when the water dries up (which is very quickly), my skin feels dry and tight. so, i carry all my eyes and face cream + body lotion with me everywhere i go. i re-apply... as and when necessary.

you can even spot me putting on body lotion while driving .. as said, as and when necesary.. regardless of place and time.


i need to put on hydrating facial mask every alternate day (at least). a must. i think it makes the difference.

this provide great relief...
and quiet time-off too...

although the extra effort doesn't resolve the problem but at least it's not getting worst.

btw, if you have any great solution to dry skin issues. please please share. thank you.

that's not the end of the story. i'm discovering more and more side effects from Iressa. doc said not only the skin, the scalp will follow too. i have also changed all my shampoo and conditioner. although the scalp still look fine but my hair is dropping and dry and brittle.

and then, i was told the in-grown nail is also the side effects of Iressa. if it get worst i.e. swollen with pus and all, do come in for medical assistance. shall i start swearing? :P
and then, the diarrhea started more than a week ago. there is no stomach pain. i don't feel sick but i'm passing watery stools... initially 2-3 times a day and now getting worst to 4-5 a day. yeap, it's one of IRESSA side effect too. i seems to hit all the jackpot ha? :P anyway, i know i should go and see my onco right about now before i get dehydrated but i'm so reluctant to take anymore medication.

if you happens to know any awesome natural remedy for diarrhea, please share. thank you. *hugs*. yes, i'm desperate. i know, if that's what it takes to save me.. take it like a woman right? :P

besides physical setback, i'm affected emotionally too. hormones!
being diagnosed with cancer itself sets you through an emotional roller coaster ride, what's more with the infliction of pain and feeling unwellness at times.

being human, i need to deal with the emotional trauma too. at times when you look at me, it doesn't seems like i'm affected that much at all but i don't think you need much convincing that i'm not always upbeat or happy or positive, although most of the time i can be.

when i need time alone, i like to drive aimlessly.. at night.. tune in some musics.. just to sort out my thoughts.
however, knowing someone at home will be worrying and waiting for me, that time alone is rather restrictive.

and what annoys me, i like to cut my hair when i'm upset. a haircut change your outlook instantly and that can indirectly change the mood too.
however, i overdid it :P i cut my hair twice just this month and i really don't like the latest haircut. the hairstyle didn't suit me at all. just hope i can hang in long enough to grow out this hairstyle. *cross my fingers*


i think i grumble too much today and i better stop writing.
but before i pen off,

LOVE THIS RECIPE BOOK!!
THANK YOU SO MUCH TO THE AWESOME BLOGGERS!!! THANK YOU!
*love*hugs*kisses*






you see, i don't even know how to handle my hair now.. it looks funny let down..funnier still clip up..
ok. ok. i better stop grumbling :P